But I'm not feeling good maybe i woke up on the wrong side of my bed. It was raining in the morning and i didn't get a good sleep. Noises everywhere that woke me up.
My mummy is back from China and i showed her the gown that i selected for my ROM. She said that i don't look very good in the long gown and very inconvenient to wear such "toot toot train" dress. So we went back to the bridal studio to chose my gown again and however the gown are quite selective. Then, i tried on this gown which i do not like it but my mummy say that it makes me look very cute and cheerful but also it's short and easy to move around. I look so FAT in the gown that i even have to blackout my face. SAD! The more i think about it, the more i detest it.
How??! I look like a PILE of SHIT right? I hate myself. Hate to be FAT. Hate all the good food in this freaking whole. Hate freaking worries. In subject to this gown, i quarrelled with my DD , being moody and make myself low morale. I hate this gown. I hate everything. Then when i start to feel the mood swing hit me, i have the thought that i don't want to get married anymore. I hate seeing myself looking ugly in the pretty gown. The gown is pretty but I'm not!
I do not want to be impluse anymore. The problem of causing so much happiness only has a reason and the reason is that i want to look pretty and slim on my wedding day. After much consideration, encouragment and support from DD, i manage to make the choice "The one that i like".
I decide to give the bridal studio a call and give my firm decision with long gown. I know it might be very draggy and can't move about freely. It fits me well. DD also said that it look good on m. I love it! Also feeling so paiseh for causing people so much inconvenience. =(
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Princess Crystalbelle
Thursday, May 14, 2009 
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Princess Crystalbelle 
