Quarrels after quarrels. Love is truly upsetting and hurting.
Seems like tides will only get rougher and rougher. When will it calm down?

Sigh! Our quarrel is not ending. 2 years + of relationship is not strong enough to overcome the long distance relationship barrier. The emptiness is acting up again. I feel so lonely without him. I went to Vivocity supposing to shop around and buy something to pamper myself. After having my lunch, i decide to walk around but i feel no energy or mood to shop. Everyone in the mall has their friends or bf/gf. Me?! I've nobody then i decide that i better go home and hid.

However, i bought a cosmetic scissors, additional screen protector for my DS and a new screen protector for my HP. I did a bad handicraft putting the crystals on my HP and feel its so ugly. Sad! I regret sticking them onto my HP. Plus i don't really like my HP. =( I thought that i can take photo with a preview of seeing myself before taking a shot but my HP do not have this function. Sigh!

Today, i went for the Mid Autumn Festival briefing at the Central which last for 2 weeks. It feels so weird as I'm the one female temp staff for this event. =( There are many pretty setup for the lanterns celebrating Mid Autumn meaning "Mooncake Festival". So Cute! The minute i saw the lanterns, i wish that DD could be present to take pictures with it. Too bad that he isn't around. It's really adorable.

I'm assigned to guide the stage area which covers from the main road to the entrance of the Central. Mainly, guiding performers to be organised and ensuring the events or shows to go on smoothly. Our working time is 4pm - 12mn subject to changes. Tomorrow, Mr Nathan will be going to open the ceremony at the Central. Haa! I've saw him during ST Family day. Now it's going to be the 2nd time having a chance to meet him again.

After going to Vivocity and the briefing, i feel so tired. These nights i did not sleep well. Last night, i fall asleep around 4am. I took a nap then have dinner at home. I feel so bored and frustrated. I got up and went to Tampines since I'm so lost. I got something out of Body Shop - [retractable brush, blusher (30%), lip gloss(35%)]. I paid $1.90 for the retractable brush (original at $26.90 after a $25 off), $16.90 for blusher and $12.90 for lip gloss. And, i got another additional reward that if i spent another $30 - i get $30. OMG, another bonus. I feel like buying makeup remover and a loose powder with a brush. Now i'm earning another money, so i need to think twice before buying.

I also bought a white eyeliner from Face Shop - $12.25 after a 5% discount. Dying to try it on my eyes to make my eyes look bigger. I really want to learn makeup as i really have interest. Without having to pay for makeup course, i watch You Tube instead. It really great too. I find the girl on the You Tube so pretty but she is 20years old American Born Chinese from US Texas. She gets to get the makeup and brushes there. So tempted! I want to make more research on the cost for enrolling in makeup school so i can do my own makeup or freelance makeup. =)

Also i received my "Big Lens" contact lens i bought online but i guess, i will put it on when i go meet DD or DD come back. I want to look more adorable for him. Hee! Dress in lovely dress to go gai gai. Despite quarrels, i still think about him. Like dressing up and looking pretty for him. Maybe he will not keep another girl's pictures on his lap top if i m prettier? It makes me so inferior when he does that. Breaks my heart and hurt my self-consciousnesses.

Love is contradicting as well.

We quarrelled!

This is like the first quarrel out of 2 months. It might be the longest period that we have been so nice to each other. Somehow i wonder if we truly love one another or just a companion. I'm vexed and stuck now. I really want to go over to join him in US but it's still not the right time. Because he not sure when is the fucking date that he will return to SG. Next, i need money. I wan to earn money so to go shopping and save up. Plus now the economy is quite slow and I'm afraid that it would enter a recession. If the economy would to enter a recession when I'm not having a job, it will be terrifying for me. More financial commitment without a job is dreadful.

He scolded me and ask me: "Do you really think you are a princess?". I feel hurt and somehow i could not make out why. Maybe because i thought couples in love, the bf should give in more to the gf? I heard many relationship stories whereby some bf are really very sweet and do romantic stuffs, give in during quarrels. Girls are naturally born with short tempered and an eye for shopping which is nothing wrong i assume. Why am I a loser in relationship?? I can't find the one that truly love me. Once i thought i found him but then later, i realize i was wrong again.

There's so such thing as "EVERLASTING LOVE". Bloody CRAP!

What is his meaning of shoving me the ring he meant to propose to me? I took it officially off today. Now my finger is missing that tiny thing. Many times i have mentioned that him but he treat it as a deaf ear. The ring has no sentimental value hence it also might the reason i didn't really want it. I can't remember anything happy about it. I even have to drag him to Bugis twice to get it unwillingly. Return to him once again for his surprise proposal. Then again, he brought me flower and shove me the ring over a normal dinner. So unromantic! But do u think he is trying? I don't think he bothers to care what i think. Deep inside me, i feel unwanted and upset. I really envy other girls when their future husband spend some time planning for the proposal just to make her surprise and happy.

Story One goes like this: There's a trip that this girl is very keen into. But the bf didnt allow her to go with her friend. Then the bf plan a trip for her. Then propose to her when they are away on the trip. I'm so so jealous! What do i got? I got "nothing".

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Story Two: My frend Pauline and Jason. Jason propose to her on surprise during their Hongkong trip at Peak. - For me, i've nothing but a sunken face after a quarrel in Hongkong. During the exchange of vows at their ROM, Jason even sang a song for Pauline. Making everyone in the room so touched! Till today, everyone will never forget what Jason did for Pauline as we can feel his strong love for her. Me?! Sigh!

There is no longer surprises from him anymore. All girls loves surprise, don't they? Nothing that can boost our relationship anymore. I feel kind of worried. Now I'm only a girlfriend to him but what if we are married, means that he can't be bothered about it anymore. It will only get worse. Then marriage life will get duller and duller and duller. Tension grew then snap one day, marriage goes on the rocks. So scary! How?! No wonder there are many people who prefers to stay single rather than having marital commitments. Come to think of it, can i change my mind not to get married? Or maybe i've not meet the guy of my life yet. Well, i think money is more important. It might not buy happiness but do you think getting married means finding your happiness? Some couples had to filed for divorce or some worse have to tolerate living with each other for their children sake.

Sigh! I rather rear dogs because they will make you happy when you sad and always loyal to you. They will not keep other girl's "binkini" photo in their laptops. Well, the ger is willing to show her flesh and the guy is attracted to her flesh and get tempted. Both deserved each other perfectly - Made in Heaven!

Life is so frustrating.

I love girlish stuffs, pink, makeup and dressing up.
It boost the confidence in oneself knowing that you look great!
Beside physical appearance needs, the most important booster is money. Haa!
Money really is the root of all evils.

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As below are some items that I've purchased online and waiting for delivery: -

1) Price: SGD19.47

I seldom buy dress online due to my large barrel size.
It was a very sweet pink dress! I simply can't resist. Plus it has XL, XXL.
I love it but hope it fits!


4) Price: $15.52 inclusive of postage

Another item, is the PINK skirt.
It can be wore 2 ways. Dress or skirt.
I love pink so much!

Today, met up with Pauline for lunch. Then, Isa and Huiqi for shopping.

I went to sign my appointment letter for my temporary job. After a long break, i'm going back to work. It's fetching quite a reasonable pay. $80 per day weekday and $100 per day for weekend with taxi claim. The disadvantage is that the working time is 3pm to 12pm. Rather tiring but it's ok as i can talk to DD online before i go to work and when i come home. Hmm, hope it would be fun and enjoyable.

Most importantly, i'm looking forward to the money! ($1400 for 2 weeks)

Last night, i didn't have a good sleep. I feel vexed with life. Now I'm waiting for an answer from DD so i can make my decision. Either to go US for another 3 months or stay in SG and actively look for a permanent job. Maybe after that answer, things will be more certain. Well, i did send my resume to 2 position earlier today. Let's see if i get any respond from the company. However, Sharp still did not contact me for another 2nd interview. I guess my chance is gone.

Nice DD asked me to go spend some money under his expenses.

But i really don't know what to buy leh. I feel like going to see MAC but seems that buying in the US or DFS will be a few dollars cheaper. Maybe i should go and test the product if i really like it. Even i have a $25 rebate at body shop which expires 31 August, i do not have anything in mind that i'm interested in. I don't want my $25 to go waste so by hook or by crook, i must get something out of Body Shop.

I missed DD. Even though we spend alot of time talking online and on the phone but still the absence is overwhelming. Really feel so bored that i do not have someone to go out, watch movie or eat dinner with. Lonely! I think he is also lonely as he can hardly trust anyone there. Relationship is so straining. Sometimes, i envy my friends that they can meet up with their boyfriend so often. Where else, my DD is miles apart from me. As we are planning for our ROM but its like we hardly talk about it after we book our venue. Maybe it's too early for discussing other details.

Love can't survive solely on bread but neither bread can give you love.

DD is making a challenge in his job.

The main obstacle that he can't present himself well in front a group of people.

He is inferior of his English as he can't pronounce well at times. I've to agree but he's trying very hard and is showing very much improvment. Most importantly, is "Be Calm". Most of the time, everyone understand what he is saying isn't it? He being a trainer of course have to train people and help them understand better. Well, a trainer can't be groomed overnight. It has to practise a few times before perfection. He claim that his tongue has problem of twisting words but if that is the case, why he can speak Chinese or Hokkien so well? So stop blaming on the tongue problem as it's nonsense.

I do hope that DD can overcome his fear and do his best.

Way to go, love! You can do it!

After the dark clouds are gone, again came warm hot humid weather.

I went jogging with Jasmine last night. It's nice having a "jogging" buddy. We chat and chat till we forgotten how many rounds we took. But i find that the running path is too constraint for many joggers. The tracks are quite narrow and it can only contain 2 people. As i'm a very considered person, i'll like make way for them. Then, Jasmine was saying i'm too nice. Haa! Gosh! Even she thinks so?

DD sometimes will tell me off for being inconsiderate. Well, i think i must be more self-centred. I think the god in heaven will bless me. Not now, it might be for my children or future generations.

I think DD is really great guy.

He might be a tactless and boring but he trying to pleased me. I wasn't too pleased with his proposal. I heard many nice proposal from my friends and what their bf did to impress them. So loving lor. I find that it bring no value for wearing the ring he bought. As for the ring, it wasn't a surprise and I'm fine with it. But he just propose to me in Tony Romas and give me the ring in the box. He didn't go down on his knees for my hand of marriage. So upsetting leh! The worse thing is that he knows that I'm very unhappy but yet he doesn't want to do something about it. The more i thought about it, the more upset I am.

Reason being that it seems like I'm very eager and sure that i will marry him hence he is taking advantage of me as he knows that I belongs to him.

He promised me that he will plan and propose to me again. Yayee!

I was wondering what is his plans??

Miss you so much, Dar Dar!

It rain the whole day. Now the weather is rather cooling and seems like end year season. I love this kind of weather especially when you can be in bed cuddling with your love ones. I stayed indoors this weekend and took a nap in the afternoon. This is the usual routine when DD is not around to go out with me. I miss him so much that emotions flushed through me and tears fell.

Now I'm home most of the time as I'm not working. I'm still have dilemma if i should stay in SG to look for a job or should i go over and join DD? In the mean time, I'm looking out for temporary jobs and going for interviews if any. I really want to get my reward by obtaining a higher pay job as i discpline myself to go to class for almost every lesson. However, still he can't give me a exact date as he has to wait for his company to give further instructions. I think it will be unfair to be away from home for such a long time especially when passion young couple need time for each other.

A lonely weekend makes me miss him badly.

The long awaited "Lease of Agreement". At last, we got an date for signing our agreement. YAY!

We went through some hiccups and all is finally coming to an end. Great!

The date was 1st September 2008. They mentioned that HDB has to deduct 5% from our CPF and then 5% upon the collection of keys. After signing the agreement of lease, we own a home! The disadvantage is that we have to wait for 5 years and the advantage is that we still have around 4 years to "CHIONG" to earn and save as much money as we can. Hee! So is it more gain than lose?

Anyway, so happy that we got the additional grant of $10K for govt for our plan. We are lucky after all. A classmate of mine applied for it and did get it. She filed for an appeal but in the end failed again.

Government is helping young couple to get marry. I think it is wise as property is increasing and salary is not hence it will take a later time for young couple to wed and to conceive. No money means no marriage and no babies. Without babies, Singapore population will dip. Recently the government has a policy that all mothers has 4 months paid leave (maternity leaves). So good right? =)

I seriously have no idea where we are going to stay after our Chinese customary that we plan to hold in 2010. Thus, i also have a baby soon. I don't want to be a old mummy. My biological clock is clicking already and also I've went to KK to do some checking for safe precaution that i can have my baby in future. Next month, i will be going for the 2nd appointment in KK. Be brave and go through it. Be a mummy is very "Wei Da" as have to carry the baby in her tummy for 9 months and have to go through the delivery pain then give care, love and attention to the baby.

There is a saying that the older you get, the worries grows.
So much planning to do and so much problems to solve.

I went for the interview at Sharp and it last for around 20 mintues. Wooah! I reach the Sharp around 10.40am and ended at 11am. I'm suppose to like go for the interview at 11am. Wishing that being early will give some credit. I'm interviewed by the HR manager and the department assistant manager. Both of them seems very young and nice. I was thinking of this question that frequently ask during interviews. What's your strength and weakness? "HENG AH" I managed to give a answer. Otherwise, if i come unprepared the answer will be a blank.

Well, i still have to wait for a phone call whether if they shortlisted me for the 2nd interview. I didn't know how the chances are for me. I'm really interested in what they are paying. Thus if yes, it will be first time in my life that I've having such a good pay. What i understand from the agency is that they are paying what I'm expecting and PSB Academy is so near. It will benefit me if i want to go continue my education with PSB. One of my classmate has recently enrolled in the advance diploma and told me that he has 10% discount because previously we have been students with PSB.

Hoping that i can get my "expected pay" job!

Studying is good as it can bring you to a higher level. I really wanted to study early though I've been complaining. But once you know that your certificate can bring a raise in your knowledge, position in the company and the pay, definitely worth it!

Sigh! After i made up my mind to join DD in US around October, then i got a phone call that i have a good chance for a job at Sharp Electronics (S) at River Valley. Phew! So far! It's not convinent at all as from Tiong Bahru MRT then i have to take a bus to Sharp. However, the salary that they are offering is what i m expecting so i decide to give it a try. I was thinking just to go for an interview first and decide later. Resulting in another dilemma. Gosh!

Why? When i've made up my mind, then another offer to cause the dilemma? What should i do? Take the job with the my expected pay despite the distance - Take a MRT around 30 mins and then have to take a bus around 10mins? Hmm, I'm really not sure! Sigh! I guess, distance for a job makes a difference.

Tomorrow, i will just go to the interview and give a shot.

The question if i'm taking up the job is still unsure.

It's been a busy week as i was sending my Grandfather, his last journey. Though, we are not very close but still i do respect and love him. It sadden me to understand life is so meaningless and short. I don't understand the meaning of life.

Even if you have many children also doesn't mean anything. Old = useless, nag, irritating, block wood and etc. Hope that he can find peace in the other world and shower blessing to us.

Sending off a love one is never easy. I really cried. It's so upsetting. Humans are humans that emotions is not easy to control. When the coffin entered the burning furnace, everyone was calling out and saying "Bye Bye" in tears. What have to go has to! It will be every one's turn one day.

I look around for number at his coffin. I read as 7414 - i bought $2, $1. Then 3rd prize as 7714. OMG! I almost got $3000k in my pocket. Now that i'm jobless, i also hope to have more cash to spend or save. Well, i'm going to try again still. Give it another 1 or 2 week.

I'm quite tense up when i went to KK's women and children hospital. I spend like $150 on consultation, tests, medicine and transport. They didnt tell me that i have to reach earlier and i dumb dumb to reach on time. I had done my pregnancy test and blood test. Pregnancy is of course proved "negative". Blood test later as we still need to know the results. A month later, i need to return for 2nd appointment. This time i need to do a scanning on the pelvis. Scary! What is that? I think it's precaution if you have grown in your lower abdomendent. Everyone has their bf or hubby to accompany them but it's me and just me. So i brave brave go. Hmm, still i missed DD's accompany. I really hope that he can return home to SG soon. I don't want to be miles apart from him. I had to eat my lunch and breakfast alone. After seeing the doctor and collecting my prescription, it's near to 1pm. So the medicine requires to take 1 each every morning for a week. Hence, i decided to take the pills tomorrow. Hope that everything is fine with me. I want a baby in near future.

After KKWCH, i went to hougang to meet up with DD's mother as she wants to pass so "Bai Jin" for my grandfather. Thinking that it's not nice to go up to the house, we decided to meet at the lift. She generously gave $50. I feel that DD's mother really treat and dote me alot. She even bring down a packet of drink for me. So touched! Then i told her that i went to the hospital for check up and she was like so worried for me. As i took blood test, the area is a little blue black but now is fine.

I saw my grandfather in the coffin and i really feel sad. Memories just came pouring back to me. He ever brought me to Chinatown and Bugis. Maybe i was the eldest grandchild i get to have more privileges. Even my other grandfather also dote me dearly. This grandfather works as a taxi driver and he never failed to buy me ice-cream as he knows that i love them. If i remember correctly, his vehicle rammed onto the MRT construction that time at Chai Chee. All of us saw the incident as it happen just the road opposite the flat. After suffering and being bed-ridden, he passed away when i'm 9 years old and i didn't have the chance to buy things or give him money to spend. Sigh!

I miss them all! But now there are already a Guardian Angel in heaven showering blessing to us.

News came around 5+am this morning that my Grandfather has passed away around 4+am. It came as a shock. As doctors mentioned that he can be discharged on Monday. As my grandfather is bedridden cause by the stroke that he suffered previously, he agreed to go to the nursing home. My mum has advise him to go back to my uncle's place in Changi but grandfather refused as he dislike my uncle. The advantage of putting up in the hospital because he has got the attention and friends whom stay in the same ward. Sometimes, we don't know or understand how old people think.

Even the one living with us, my grandmother, she likes to make remarks by things she hear from others which sometimes illogical and untrue. We all really got irritated by her for being a busybody and happen to be her character. She loves to nag and cooking skill is deteriorating. Sigh!

I guess I'm going to be busy for this couple of days as i will be attending my grandfather's funeral. DD is not able to attend this funeral as he's overseas so he's not able to sent my grandfather on his last journey. The "hardest" goodbye is the "last" goodbye.

I went out yesterday to meet up with Isa, Justin and Huiling for dinner. I also pass Huiling a gift i got from US and she liked it. Plus she also gave me a treat. Glad that yesterday i didn't spend a single cent beside on transportation.

I'm still in dilemma if i should take up the contract job in Goodrich. DD was telling not to think so much and just go back to US have some winter fun. Then after Chinese New Year, then go search for a good job. I really want to go have fun and enjoy but my money is running low. Recently, even temporary jobs aren't easy to find. Gosh! I submit my resume to 2 recruitment but none of them get back to me with a job. Sian la! I want to find temporary job also so tough meh? I was thinking if i can earn some money first before returning to US at least i can have more spare cash to spend in US. Even if i really know how to spend, i must know how to earn. So that is what cause my dilemma if i should take up the Goodrich job. The disadvantage is that i cant go to US to meet DD. Hmm, we can't survive love without bread. We need to have bread then love. Well, i'm really confused.

Today is a Saturday. I did nothing much today but just rest at home. Being at home in Singapore is unbearable. Hot and humid! The weather nowadays can't survive without aircon. I wonder who is the clever soul who invented aircon cause i must kiss him! Haa!

Good News from the Olympics is that Table Tennis bring honor to Singapore by entering the Finals! Tomorrow, SG will compete with China for Gold! Wah, China leh! I think it's quite hard as many know that China are very strong. If otherwise, Sliver do us good too. =)

Accomplished 2 things today.
1) To collect our Power of Attorney and pass to HDB
2) Touch up my eyebrows

I felt relieved that I've more or less settle my flat issue. Currently pending to sign the last document: Agreement of Lease. I believed that i will very soon receive a letter from them.

After doing the first priority, i went to touch up my brows. I thought my brows are too dark and the color is a mismatched to my hair colour. Plus i think its rather quite of too short for me. Sigh! I know that people from China is really trying hard but are they up to standard? I never going to let any China people do my hair or touch my face unless i think are up to my standards. My touch up was done by the lady boss. Good job! I think she is the best person for the job. However, i dislike going to beauty parlour reason being they love to psycho customers to buy more things by praising that you are so pretty or whatever.

Hard-selling never pay off in long term. Even they buy now, they are not returning. Haha!

Yahoo! Auctions in Singapore will be retiring.

After careful consideration, we have decided to close the Yahoo! Auctions site in Singapore to better serve our valued customers through other Yahoo! properties. Starting October 6th, 2008 Yahoo! Auctions will be closed to users in Singapore. Yahoo!

Auctions in Singapore transition timeline:
The last day to list an item for sale is September 1, 2008
The last day to bid on or buy an item is September 21, 2008
The last day to access remaining site tools such as My Account is October 6, 2008

What!? I have just trying to start up a small business. Then, they are trying to close down? Win liao lor!!!

Had a long day.

Accompanied Isa for her interview at Yeo Hiap Seng. I left the house around 8.45 am and come home around 7.30pm. Haa! Tiring!

In the morning, she even brought me old chang kee and honey milk tea for breakfast.

After her interview, we went to Orchard and had Mos Burger for lunch. Then, went Far East for shopping and walk to Somerset. Bought a few things! Oh no! Hair essence and face mask - it's was having a 30% sales! Damn! Too good to resist!

I came back and sneezing. I'm not in really top form. My throat feels kinda of sore as well. My nose is blocked. Okok, i'm not feeling good. =/

Dilemma!!!!

This question has been prompting to me.

Should I look for a full time job?

Position 6: Warehouse Administrator
(Diploma onwards, $2300 onwards)

I understand DD's point of view is to apply and explore myself to more interview. So i will have more exposure and experience. If yes and they offer me, i accepted and i will not be able to see DD for 6 months. Our Anniversary, my birthday, Christmas and New Year will be all alone. Lonely for 6 months. Sigh! What should I do? Go for the job or spend the rest of the year with DD? I guess it's quite easy for me to get a job as I have many years of experience doing admin work. It's the "MONEY" that talks.

The longest period that we did not see each other was around 4 months. From 30 Jan to 2 May 2008. Being only 4 months, it seems years. There's a saying that "LoveBirds" cannot be separated.

If otherwise, one of them will die as they are sticking to each other for life.

Bored! I was trapped at home this weekend.

It's been raining this weekend and the weather is rather cooling. =)
However, the sun will still come out after the rain. Then again, warm and hot Singapore.

I wanted to reduce spending money hence didn't want to go out. As I'm planning for my US again and without a job, I've zero income. I hope that i can get a partime in Singapore before going over to US. Then i will return next year and job search after Chinese New Year. Am I making the right choice? I'm lost and vexed. There's no calls for the positions that I've sent. Our economy is affected by US and not looking good right now. I guess things are picking up as I notice that there's a raise in US currency. Hope the Economy will pick up soon otherwise there will be serious inflation and all will suffer.

Olympics has started but channels are showing the games most of the times. TV stations has neglected that some people still enjoy movies. Nowadays, shows on TV is rather pathetic. It might be a new serial drams but cannot claim my interest. I rather go surf the net than watch pathetic serial dramas. Where good movies gone to? TV stations only broadcast them during public holidays such as Chinese New Year but who will glue to their TV during CNY when they are busying doing home visits. I rather they played old good movies on weekends.

Boring weekend! Boo Boo Boo!

A myth that it will rain before National Day Parade. However, rain came pouring down minutes when the parade starts. Well, it's been high humidity the whole day.

Poor marching NS men have to march in the rain. Senior Minster Goh Cheok Tong and Senior Mentor Lee Kwan Yee make their grand entrance by vehicle. Wooah! But Mr Lee really aged and seems to walk very slow.

The national day song by Chua Chun Jia sucks. I think it's the worse among every singer ever sang. She isn't popular at all. I still perfer Lin Jun Jie or Sun Yan Zi. Best!

I wish that I can go participate our National Day Parade with DD in future years. =)

Majulah, Singapura!



I am proud to be a Singaporean! Love my country.
Happy 43rd Birthday, Singapore! Yippee!

Though i loved coloured hair but i find that my hair is too blonde.
Hence, i decide to buy a DIY hair dye to save money. I did the hair dye today and pleased with the result. Yayee! So happy that my hair now look much healthier and smooth!!

It will matched better with my dark brown eyebrows. I'm going to do a touch up next Thursday and have fixed an appointment. Great! However, i find that natural brows are nicer. After this touch up, i will not go for eyebrows embroidery in future. I like prefer the soft looks of natural brows even though i enjoyed not having to draws my eyebrows all the time.

I tried on my OPI nails polish and loving them! The price is quite expensive for a nail polish which cost around $9+ (inclusive shipping) but colour is strong and nice. It's a popular brand used in Nail Salons. Definitely, making the right choice buying them as it's a quality brand. Then i add my crystals to my nails. Very pretty! I'm still waiting more crystals that I've ordered online to arrived soon.

Sigh! Recently, i got no calls or news from the resume that I've sent. Sad! I am quite lost what to do. Should i look for a job that's not what i want? To take up a temporary job first? Without a job, i will have no income. Sigh!

I am quite keen to go over Utah to meet DD again. If I'm with there, he will not feel so alone and i can talk or play with him. We can eat dinner or go shopping and etc, just like what we use to do when I was back in Utah. Gosh! I'm really missing him and the times there.

Recently, things are not going too smooth for him. When he's back from his 2 weeks break, we did went to the temple to pray. However, things are better but still not very good. I decide to go to the temple next week to 打小人! I want my DD to be away from all harm.

Live telecast showing Olympics Opening from Beijing on TV now! Grand Event! Woah!
I do not have much interest in China people but have to say they are pretty smart.
I admire them building the "Great Wall of China" and will visit when i have the chance. =)

Today is a cooling day with dark clouds in the sky.
It's 08 /08 / 08 (Fa Fa Fa) - Olympics Opening in Beijing and also an eve to our National day.

Thus, it's our 8 million ToTo Jackpot draw. I bought some to have a kick of it.
Prays that i can strike some money as now i m jobless so have to depends on luck to bring in some cash. =)

HUAT arh!

I missed Utah and Dar Dar. Miss the times we are living together.

The feeling is like husband and wife. Occasionally, when he is unhappy with work, i will be his listening ear and give some comments. Or i might also help to curse and swear about that person. I don't like my DD being bullied or taken advantage of. I believed in Karma and that "What comes around goes around". If you did something to someone, one day another person will do that thing to you. So be nice to others who is worthy but judge them first.

While in Utah, I cooked dinner and wait for him to return home. Unfortunately, I'm not a very good cook. Since I have more time, I'm learning how to whip up more dishes to fill his stomach. I'm learning to fried food as my DD love fried chicken. When i see him love eating the food i cooked, makes me happy too.

Hopefully our new flat in Sengkang will complete sooner.

The weather is high humitidy today. Dark clouds formed above my head.

Finally, the raindrops came falling down. So happy! It's been ages since it has rained!
The weather is so hot and plants are dying. At last at last, rain came.

It will be a cooling weather to sleep tonight. Yayee!

***Playing in the rain***

I can't sallow my anger! Exploding!

Whoever messed with my DD, mess with me! I really feel pissed off!
Trying to make things difficult for others? What goes around comes around?
If you think you are smartest, there's always someone smarter than you.

We have some unpleasant issues with our housemate in Utah. He complained that we do not share the car with him and do not do housekeeping. I must say he is a real FUCKER. He indeed is a hypocrite when he being nice to us and stab our backs the next moment. He can't open his mouth that he need to use the car? I think his mouth got shit being the reason that he can't even asked. He really think I deliberately left the pot of rice overnight for him to do housecleaning? Then, i must be so dumb. I blame myself for leaving that pot of rice. Well, we finally see his true colours and were sadden. We are fooled by his "nerdy" appearance and 100% regret of being nice and totally trusting. Gosh, such person is actually staying the same roof as us. Eeeeek! Everything is going to be over soon as DD is going to move out on 5 th Aug. Prays that the next housemate is not a jerk.

It's true that I'm not smart and ever being bullied by my colleagues but i get to learn something from there. I learnt to stand up to fight and be cautious to my surrounding. I'm still learning to see through a person and judge them before making further involvements.

I really need to give DD a hug for all these stuffs that he's going through. Poor DD! Muack muack, Sayang! Hope all this unhappiness will over soon and put it back behind you. Learn from this valuable lesson to judge someone before trusting and giving. It's good to be kind but when it backfires, it's "you" that gets hurt. Be a FOOL once, not twice. =)

No matter what it is, I will be your listening ear and support you.

To Darling,



You are always on my mind. I love you!



Love,
Dar Dar

I missed DD badly. But Love can't solely survived without bread. I need a job to build my career and our love nest too. Remembering that he whisper to my ears and wanted to tell me a secret. It's childish but i find it very cute and sweet. It's so weird not hearing his voice or not seeing him.

I am in a dilemma if i should go to Utah to meet DD or to search for a job. Now the economy is slow and down, job opportunities are lesser. Even there's a position, the pay will be not meet my expectations. Sigh! If I've a job, we will be separate for 6 months. Thus, we cannot spend our (02 December) 3rd anniversary or my birthday together? What should i do? I'm so loss.

Is it that i can meet DD only on 8 月15日?

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